My theme for 2011: “PROACTIVE, NOT REACTIVE”.
Unlike my themes for the last 2 years, this year’s theme is highly internal. Toward the end of 2010 I started to realize that I am a highly reactive individual, that (largely due to my childhood as an Army brat) I have grown accustomed to continually adapting to whatever situation I’m currently in and morphing into whatever it is I think I need to be in order to assimilate/belong. Although this may sound like a useful/practical way of living, it does not necessarily lead to being truly happy, as my happiness is always contingent upon external circumstances.
So in 2011, I’ve made it my focus to look inside myself and discover who I really am, what I really want, the way I want to be…and unapologetically be myself in each and every situation I encounter throughout the year. My hope is that by the end of the year I will be quite comfortable in my own skin, that I will no longer second guess myself, that I will no longer feel guilty about pursuing happiness and my chosen direction in life, that I will move forward proactively and not allow external stimuli to adversely affect me.